gOd hAs p|Ans fOr me

it really is weird, me citing god in my post....
it's not that i dont believe in god. i believe in him very much.
he has tested me academically, to survive 5 yrs of torture in uni. im not a perfect student, im not the studious type. & im not tat smart either. but 5 yrs of hardwork, lots of effort, lots of late nites, lots of thinkin & rethinkin & rethinkin of my creditibility in engineering, i finally pulled through. i struggled practically every semester, & im only struggling to keep being in the second upper range while pple are getting 4.0, getting As all the time. im only struggling to be able to stay atleast a 3 pointer & above. but it proves that by giving my all, i pulled through & im graduating.
maybe god has answered my prayers, he let me graduate in second upper & he even gave me something xtra for all my hardwork. he added an extra icing to the top of the cake. he gave me a wonderful job. & i thank god for it. i really thank god. thank u.

but now, there's always a setback. by getting a wonderful job, he is now testing me on my love life. but love, is not like studyin, even when u give 110%, doesnt mean u get anything in return. u study hard for tests, u will surely pass, even if u dun get an A, atleast u pass.

but love is different. so love's the hardest task & he has plans to test me. & its tough, the road is long & winding, wif hills & bumps & potholes. it probably might even hv earthquakes, volcanoes, hurricanes to add on into my journey of love. testing my patience, testing how much i love u, testing how much i care for u. only saying wif words, is no use. it's only proven by actions. so, all tis talk is nothing & means nothing if it only stays being words. being so far away from u, takes double effort or triple effort to even show i care. not to mention showering u wif my love. but i believe, when there is hope, & there is determination & there is patience, it will pull me through. preseverence is needed.

taking baby steps is better thn not even taking the first step. hvg baby steps, there's a chance it will lead to child steps, teenagers' steps & adult steps. nothing starts wif leaps & jumps. even lil babies start learning to crawl before they can walk. & it's only little by little that will build a strong relationship (if there ever is going to be one).

i thk u, baby, for giving me hope & courage. i know u care, very much & i can feel it. thk u. thk u for realising tat i hv always been there. humans probably are like that, things that is near & closest to u, is always invisible until it starts to leave. but im only leaving, physically, my heart stays wif u. i believe, nothing is ever too late.

pple say im stupid, pple say im dumb, pple say im not as rational as i tink i am. & yes, i admit, i am foolish, i am stupid, i am dumb & i am unrational to put myself thru all tis. but there's always a question : r u worth me being stupid, foolish & dumb? & my answer is YES.