time tO quit?

picture paints a thousand words...

Xes x2

two X-es in 5 days... awful... awkward & lousy...
especially when it was me being dumped...
especially when both of them looked better than they used to...
& i look shitty as usual... ahahhaha...
not wat i was looking forward to this CNY...

& ironically, both of them have the same name...
pple wif that name keep dumping me... so my criteria for my next partner will be not to be named that name.
the thing is, pple wif that name are all around & pple wif tat name tend to look cooler, prettier & yeng-er... doesnt apply to all tho... just some... ahahha...

u. her. A|ike?

i finally realised... u look so much like her...
ur aura feels so much like her...

the way she smiles, makes me think of u...
the way she talks, makes me think of u...
the way she winks, makes me think of u...
the way she laughs, makes me think of u...
the way she looks at someone, makes me think of u...

watching her... it's like watching u...

how stupid can i be to realise it only today, where someone else realised it few years ago... *piaks*
maybe i just wasn't attentive enough when i watched her on tv...
maybe because today, it was a wide wide screen & she appeared so near to me... suddenly it just felt like it was you who is so close to me...

weird

i felt weird.
u felt weird.
we both felt weird. i guess.
u left.

AttrActive distrActiOn

i know im an asshole... hahaha... i know i cant live wifout being excited bout somethin... it jz keeps me alive k... if not, i wouldnt hv a life... ahahhaha... i found myself a very good distraction this time... ahhha... an attractive one... pheewwwiiitttt... applause please, applause.... *claps hands*...
but it is short lived... im leaving... so end of story... ahahha...

anyways, talking bout going back, ill only b able to stay home for 6 days, poor me... come on... give me some symphathy... i hvta get my ass back to work by 22nd Feb, means i hvta take a flight back on the 21st! tat sucks big time! but EIC made me a deal, she will give me days off after i break-out... so i told her i wan days off, so i can go to singapore!!!!!! ahahahah...

singapore... mari mari mari...

|eAvin sOOn

i feel happy... but at the same time, i feel... sad to leave... or feel weird... dont know why...
malaysia is still my home country & i love malaysia very much & im lookin forward to return home...
but then again... it's a new place here... there r just too many things to explore, too little time...
too many things i wana pursue, too little opportunity...
i have just seen the tip of the iceberg, & im longing to dive deep under the waters to venture to the bottom of the iceberg, but before i get to wear my diving suit, it's already time to return home... i cant kill 2 birds wif one stone... i got wat i came here for but i missed out on lotsa opportunities... wish it came in a balance... wish i could have done both at the same time... wish i was around longer, wish i was around earlier... ahahhaha...
only the workin conditions suck, other thn tat, its a perfect place... friendly pple, helpful pple, witful pple, & most of all, cute pple... ahahhaha... wish we had cute pple in kemaman, atleast i will b more motivated to work at base... aahhaha *piaks*

enough of my crap... let's see wat beijing has to offer...

white.s

s.n.o.w.
w.i.n.d.
s.n.o.w.
w.i.n.d.
s.n.o.w.

my jOb

braving through wind & snow... is part of the job...
being there & escaped by a hairline... is part of the job...
seeing someone u work wif being hospitalized... is part of the job...
not being able to feel ur fingers & toes... is part of the job...
not being able to shower... is part of the job...
not being able to sleep... is part of the job...
having no control of ur career... is part of the job...
having no one close beside u... is part of the job...
being subjected to hazards 24 hours a day... is part of the job...
being dirty... is part of job....
wearing same clothes for as long as u know... is part of the job...

is it a choice?
u can say it is... u can say it isn't...