i PASSED!

i PASSED! its the end of school! i passed! let's go party baby!

time pAsses by tOO s|Ow|y

when im waiting for my exam answers to be graded... minutes just crawl by which makes it seems like hours...
& the fact that i dont know where i stand in the exam, adds on to my nervousness...

A yeAr O|der, nOt A s|ightest bit wiser

crossing 12am makes u wiser coz ur a year older? fat hope... today, i walked into class ready to face the last hurdle... it was a tough battle... a battle i didnt know how to fight... i just took my chances & handed it in... even my special day doesnt seem to wana show me mercy...

bOOts

gOOd & evi|??

i dont know wat the picture actually means... ahhaha... just find it cool...

Out Of sync

there are so many factors that can contribute to being out of sync...
signals comin in, but cant be synchronized, it only keeps searching...
frequency might not be compatible...
rates might not be compatible...
thresholds might not be compatible...
if its signal loss, it might be pumps down...
so, to maintain it being in sync, we need to have the skills... to keep everything right n in sync... & im obviously not good at it yet... im not experienced enuf... it takes time to learn... & it also depends on whether the program wants me to learn it. if the program completely shuts itself away from me, there's no way im going to get it in sync...

bA|Ance in |ife

sorry, but i am indeed an engineer & being so attached to work, it automatically makes me derive equations & come out wif graphs, which basically dont mean anything...
to strive a balance in life?

3 + 1

3 more days to go...
1 more exam...
i just want get it over & be done wif it...

i'm expired

yeah... i am expired... u said it reminded u of mooncake... but it's true...
i am already expired... well past my "best before" date... & it's sad...
looks like im bout to be dump into the thrash... oh wait... maybe i am already being dumped into the trash... hmmm...

cOme dAnce wif miche||e

i realised im not into ang moh people... dont know why... i know alot of them are soooo hot... especially those in L Word... ahahha... but then again... i have been in US for almost 10 weeks, not even a single ang moh has caught my at all... weird... pple drool for white people... i dont.

it came to me... im turned on by asian people, people my color... ahhaha... asian americans turn me on, big time... ahahaha... look at michelle krusiec, lynn chen. one word: WOW! they hv the asian looks but hv superb language capability. im impressed. superb! i wish i spoke english like them... *dream on*

recently, i saw thise one clip with michelle krusiec in it, a taiwanese programme, like Jack Wu's (is that how u spell his name?) but it's hosted by this popular taiwanese lady (dont know her name). oh by the way, michelle krusiec's a taiwanese, as well as lynn chen (i think). & michelle krusiec was dancing on that show, African vs. hip hop dance. one word: WOW! Hotttttt.... *drool* *drool*
go take a look if u gals are free... ahhaha
link: http://michellekrusiec.blogspot.com/2005_12_01_michellekrusiec_archive.html

time fOr rOmAnce

Libra

Sept 23 - Oct 22

While celebrating your big day with a mega blowout may sound tempting, the key to happiness is intimacy. The hours you spend with someone you love may be the best birthday present you could wish for.

Seems so true... all i need now is to spend precious time wif my baby... I dont need expensive gifts, i just need your love...

9 mOre dAys...

only 9 more days to go...
hvg 2 exams tomorrow...
classes on saturday & sunday...
2 exams on tuesday...
1 exam on thursday...
thn im done...
eating & drinkin on thurs nite... ahahha...

10 mOre dAys tO gO...

title says it all...
10 more days till i board my plane...
9 more days till im free of studyin n sitting for exams...
*excited**excited*
no heart to study anymore... haih...

sOme AsshO|e mutthAf**ker

i dont know which f**king idiot has been calling my hp since weeks ago & the f**ker nvr stops calling & the f**ker calls when im f**king sleepin!!!
this asshole wif this f**king number : 07-2238155
if there's anybody out there who knows this mutthaf**ker, pls tell that idiot to stop harassing me!
i think the idiot called bout 20-30 times accumulatively since weeks ago & me being good hearted, i picked up the phone in case it was an emergency & told that idiot he got the wrong number. & i picked up his f**king call 4 times just to tell him to f**king stop calling me!!! & i dont know which f**king part of "U GOT THE WRONG NUMBER. PLEASE STOP CALLING ME!!!" does he NOT understand! when i off my hp to sleep, the next morning i see 6 missed calls... imagine if i have had my hp on the whole nite, ill have him calling me 6 f**king times! im in US only i cant scold him longer! if i had chance, i'd shove a f**king pole up his arse!

|et the cOuntdOwn begin!

from today onwards, i'll be in school everyday till the day i board the plane to fly back... so, let the countdown begin...
12 more days to go... OR
288 hours more to go... OR
17280 minutes more to go... OR
1036800 seconds more to go...

ahhahaha....

huge |etdOwn

i have been wanting to go to HOOTERS ever since i came here... well, of course i wanted to go to Colorado more than HOOTERS, but then... it's not as easy as just walking in, especially if it's a striptease pub, so with Colorado out of grasp, HOOTERS was the next attraction for me... i mean, it's a place u dine in but wif hot chicks in skimpy outfits serving u! oh man, it'll be dinner in heaven (or that's wat i thought)... but heck no... i had dinner there justnow... it didnt turn me on at all... i mean... yeah, they wore skimpy outfits, but then... there's nothing special about those girls... u can sometimes see pple wearing like that on the streets, though not often... & wif our such bad luck, we had a "not white" american waitress... ok, im not a racist, but people go there to see sexy, big boob blondes... not otherwise... & to make it worse, the waitress wasnt friendly, & didnt even bother to smile a lil more... hello?! they r supposed to be famous for their curvy bodies & selling their smiles... this waitress was lousy... if we had an all girls table of customers, i can understand, but we had 5 young guys from different different countries there & she didnt even bother to give a better impression... so we all went back to the hotel feeling utterly disappointed, especially the guys & me as well... the food was just ok, not super delicious... nothing much for spur me to go there again... unless the next time i go there, a real sexy waitress comes to serve me...

HOOTERS girls should have been like this:

view frOm the tOp

i forgot to mention that the San Jacinto monument was very very tall... bout 500 feet... hahaha & their viewing level was bout 468 feet (approximately, i cant remember) & from there, u can practically look down upon the whole San Jacinto area... it actually reminds me of the view when i looked down from the helicopter... ehehhe...

get reAdy. Aim. fire!!!

we r having the last free weekend now... so we didnt wana waste any of it... ahhaha...
we headed to San Jacinto to visit the Battleship TEXAS BB-35 & the San Jacinto Monument!
was a very nice place... so calm... so serene & u have a real battle ship there for us to go in & visit...
but after being in the battle ship & seeing the stuff they have in there, i think i like the rig much much more... ahahaha... i wouldnt wana work in the battleship even if u give me loads of money... ahahha...
but it was a really good experience, what a sight, with those real machines, canons, engines, galleys, etc... really an eye-opener for me... ahhaa...
then we went across to the San Jacinto Monument, there is a history behind it, i tink the war took place there & it was how texas became texas... ahhaha... (dont exactly know what im babbling about *piaks*)
it was a really great outing...

now i wana go HOOTERS for dinner... kekeke...

wAt dO u dO?

what do u do when u hv no where to go & nothing to do?
u drink beer in a pub in ur hotel... that's how boring life can be... ahhahaha...
tis is the last weekend off...
from monday onwards till the day i go back to malaysia, everyday's in school & exams... so... better make full use of this weekend... ekkeke

dOes it hAve A meAning?

i woke up today feeling weird... coz i had a weird dream...

ah c was getting married... in pants... wif her gf (which i dont know who, even in d dream, she just looked like a really average somebody)... & they had the marriage ceremony wif only their close relatives in a kampung... hmmm... so weird... & the weirdest part is... i was there... oh well, i passed by in the car (i dont know why i was at the kampung) & saw the ceremony & only realised that hey, that's ah c. what's she doing here, in tuxedo? ahahhha... & then i had an interview wif her, at some very dark lorong belakang (it seems she stays in some small kampung house wif lorong belakangs...weird)... we had the interview only by candle light... (now im wondering why am i a papparazi? & candle light??? weird)... & then after the interview, her wife came out & they kissed so passionately in front of me... ahahahahah... then they went back into their small kampung house.... ahahahha... thn i walked back to my hse (somewhere near there too, i guess), apparently, a kampung house as well...

& i woke up... feeling so weird...

so does it have a meaning? apparently, NOT. ahhaha... too weird...

|A|Ang... yet AgAin...

yes... im talking bout my lalang hair... urghh... i have not have a chance to go to my stylist to get my hair cut. it's been almost 5 months already... i have been wanting to cut my hair since 3 months ago, so its now LONG LONG LONG overdue! it's out of shape, out of style, out of everything... cant believe that i can be this busy till i cant find any time in 5 months to cut my hair... urghh... i'll make it one of my main priorities when i get back to malaysia... do u realise that recently i have been saying "back to malaysia" relatively often? ahahahha.... it just subconciously creeps into my mind that ill b gng back soon... well, not creep la... sounds so creepy... ahhaha...

i want a haircut.
i need a haircut.
i desperately need a haircut.

my schedu|e... hmmm...

usually i make a schedule & will not follow it... but nonetheless, hvg a schedule is better thn not having one... ahahha... it's so that i hv something to blog about, thats all... ahahhaha...
let me start wif from now onwards... hmmm...

today: study log interpretation till bed time
tomorrow: log interpretation exam & presentation
saturday: radiation training & exam
sunday: rest day
monday, tuesday, wednesday, thursday: ADN class, ADN practical & standards presentation
friday: ADN exam
saturday & sunday: ADN log interpretation class
monday: log interpretation exam & ADN RM
tuesday & wednesday: Rig practical
thursday: ADN RM exam
friday: roundtable
saturday: balik malaysia! yay!

hahahahha.... cant wait... hahaha....
alrite... so now i can see that i still have another FIVE exams to go before i can officially pass my school *shrugs*

stuff in my tOi|et. interested?

just for the heck of it... ahhaha...
oh... & my CK Crave... just putting it on so pple will crave for me.... ahaha... *dream on*
but it does smell good... i prefer men's perfume to women's... ehhehe...

2 & A hA|f mOre weeks!

i cant wait to go back to malaysia!!!!!!!!!!

they give me no choice

how they ever wonder why i dont like to tell them stuff... how can they not know? they fucking check my stuff man... & they expect me to reveal all my stuff to them? they must b crazy! i dont understand how can they not understand i hate it when they check on me... damn... it makes me angry,.. it really really does... they complain im not close to them anymore, & they dare complain... they should know better WHY i dont like telling them anything... fuck!

my stupid mistAke

oh great... my fucking statements are sent to my hse which my parents will screen thru every fucking thing... damn! my credit cards statements are supposed to be sent to kemaman, according to the secretary, but no, it ended up in shah alam, how the hell did they fuck that up? secondly, my savings account statement is not supposed to even be sent to my hse & i dont know why suddenly it appears in my hse, fuck! now my parents wana go thru the whole list & know how my every cent ended up being where they are now... shit! i must make ammendments SOON!!!! 1st, change my address back to kemaman! 2nd, try to change everything online!!! damn damn damn... & stupid hsbc needs to be called to tell them of the changes of address & everything, cannot do online, so stupid!!!!! can u imagine earning ur own money & ur parents practically SEE THROUGH ur whole account! fuck... that's really fucked up man! damn...

MUST. CALL. HSBC. WHEN. IM. BACK. IN. MALAYSIA.
MAKE. THAT. MY. 1ST. PRIORITY.

miAmi ink

talking bout tattoos... hmmm... so cool...
i think i might get one... ahhaha... when i have the courage to fight thru all the pain... ehehhe... where should i tattoo? which part of my body? where will it be yeng? where will it be sexy? what graphic should i choose? i know i would like a plain black one instead of those colourful ones... hmmm....

justnow i was watching an episode on Miami Ink, & this les couple went to get a tattoo done on their ankles, to celebrate their anniversary... & both of them are so beautiful!!! hahahaha... they had a cluster of stars tattooed to their ankles... but personally, i dont quite like the cluster of small stars, from far, it just looks like their feet are dirty... ehhehe...

maybe ill get one on my back? my shouldber? my hip? somewhere not everybody can see... only my special someone can appreciate my symbol of love & creativity... hehehe... & make sure its some place my parents will NEVER get to see, if not they will kill me (i think) ahahah...

maybe i should tattoo a special face on myself? hmmm... like this?

slowly wait... wait till i gather enough courage! ahahha

6 hours exAm

another killer exam... 6 hours... die...
passing mark: 80%
fail once, warning letter.
second chance, passing mark: 90%
fail the second time, get screwed, pack ur bags & go home.

its tomorrow....
i better not screw up...
i must be very careful & check every lil thing there is to check...
better pray i pass...

classes on wed & thurs...
exam on friday...
QUEST & learn on friday...
presentation on friday...
radiation training on saturday...

*shakes head*

AnOther nice pic...

berhenti berhArAp

Aku tak percaya lagi
Dengan apa yang kau beri
Aku terdampar disini
Tersudut menunggu mati

Aku tak percaya lagi
Akan guna matahari
Yang dulu mampu terangi
Sudut gelap hati ini

Aku berhenti berharap
Dan menunggu datang gelap
Sampai nanti suatu saat
Tak ada cinta kudapat

Kenapa ada derita
Bila bahagia tercipta
Kenapa ada sang hitam
Bila putih menyenangkan

Aku pulang....
Tanpa dendam....
Ku terima... kekalahanku...

Aku pulang...
Tanpa dendam...
Kusalut kan... kemenanganmu...

Kau ajarkan aku bahagia
Kau ajarkan aku derita
Kau tunjukkan aku bahagia
Kau tunjukkan aku derita
Kau berikan aku bahagia
Kau berikan aku derita...

Aku pulang....
Tanpa dendam....
Ku terima... kekalahanku...

Rebahkan kalbumu
Lepaskan perlahan
Kau akan mengerti
Semua...

Aku berhenti berharap
Dan menunggu datang gelap
ampai nanti suatu saat
Tak ada cinta kudapat...

going off...

guess ill jz go off to nurse my heart, my head & my stomach...

AnybOdy wAnA shAre their thOughts wif me?

when ur alone, far away from home... how do u feel?

ur life is back at home, yet ere u r, so far away...
ur love is back at home, yet ere u r, so far away...

how do u feel when u r sitting all alone in ur hotel room & u feel depressed, frustrated & devastated?

u wana talk to someone, but there's nobody here u can trust to talk to...
u go searching for those online, pple u can trust has alr gone to bed, a long long time ago, those online, u cant share ur most personal things wif them...
u hold up the phone, u wana dial, thn u stop, coz there's no one there for u to dial to...
u wana do ur work, but u cant concentrate...
u wana go out, but u hv no where to go...
u hv a place to go, but u dont hv transport...
u wana drink & get drunk but there's tones of work waiting for u to do...
u wana relax, but u hv examS around the corner...
u wana sleep, but u cant...
u wana go home, but that's not for another 3 long weeks...
u wana go home NOW, but that will mean ur fired...
u get fired, means u hv no job...
no job, means no salary...
no salary means u cant support the pple u love...
u cant support the ppl u love means... they mite just leave u...
ur bday is comin soon, but pple u love is not here to celebrate it wif u...
ur bday is comin soon, but nobody knows...
ur bday is comin soon, & the only present u get is exams...
u wana go to a bar, there's no one to accompany u there...
u wana go to a bar, ur worried its not safe...
u wana go to a bar to drink ur day away, ur worried u screw up & get fired...
u hv stomach cramps, but u dont wana take medicine...
u hv headaches, but u dont wana take pills...
ur tired & the verge of giving up, there's nobody there to give u support...
all u need now is love... & u wonder whether u can feel it or not... words dont mean anything... action speaks louder thn words... all u get r words but no action... & u start to tink how much love ur gona get from jz words... ur not even getting real words from the mouth, all u get are those from text, which seems to not appear often anymore...
u try ur best, ur very best to keep everythin good... u try hard to make an effort to keep in touch, yet at the end of the day u feel like ur jz an irritating person coz u call at all the wrong time... coz any time is a wrong time... morning is wrong time... noon is a bad time... nite is not right either... u give up on calling, coz ur calls are not needed... even text seems not important... u mite not even get a single text for a long long time... wat is there left? u dont even know... when action speaks more thn words, u dont get action... when u dont get action, words seem like a good replacement but thn u dont get them either... thn u sit in ur room tinking... wat should u be thinking? tell me... wat should u tink? when ur in foreign land, all u hv is love to keep u going, but when u don feel them much anymore... is there anything else to keep u going? u dont know... u jz know everything is fucked up... & ur fucked up... & ur an idiot...
u remember those days when ur wanted... when pple make an effort... when u were touched by their actions... when u felt their love... ur heart melted...
now, u sit in ur toom & all u hv are those times & those memories... coz u dont get em anymore, u dont feel em anymore...
its true wat pple say, "u will nvr treasure wat u hv untill u lose em"
its true wat pple say, "the thing seems precious when i dont hv them, & when u sucessfully get hold of them, they r worthless"

...

i really do feel better... dono is it because it has alr been a few hours or because i screamed it out all over my blog or im just too tired of complainin... hahhaha
but i still feel like an idiot, that has not changed...

i love u... i just hate myself...

p|Ace fOr me tO shOw my frustrAtiOn

when u cant talk to anybody, when u need to talk to someone, the whole world is asleep & those who arent wont understand u... all i have left is blogspot... where the fuck is everyone when i need to talk???? oh wait... i dont hv frens i can talk to, exceptone... oh how sad can i be? gosh, im so lame...

all i wana do now is drink up wine, get drunk n sleep my day away, but i cant, coz i hv a 6 hour exam tomorrow... how sad can that be? when im already so sad, i cant even get myself drunk & fall asleep! how else sad can i be?

i was doing my work... thn i felt the need to talk to someone, & she's asleep... i need to talk... i had to purposely change back to my original harddrive to online, just to blog it all out... not like it matters, not like anyone reads it, not like anybody cares...

maybe i'll jz throw my phone cards away? good point, coz nobody needs me to call em... wats the use of hvg phone cards anyway? i mite jz thrash em... is there anyone out there who wans me to call em? raise ur hands... jz to show me, im wanted or needed... show ur hands... atleast give me the tiny winy bit of love... hahahha....

u know, god treated me so well, that he gave me extra feelings... feelings that it seems now, unnecessary... i wish i had less of feelingss... i wish i had less... take it away from me... i dont wan it...fucking take it away....
hahaha... its so funny... i was telling my fren "i wish i had less of feelings... i dont need them now"... she said "by the time u dont feel it anymore, means she is not important to u anymore" me said "oh... like that ar... thn i can jz walk away lor"... but thats not i want... i feel like such an idiot... i seriously feel so idiotic... i jz feel so idioticccccccccccccccccccc..... fuck....l

i feel intoxicated now, wifout even drinking... i better not drive... coompany will fire u if u get a DWI (driving while intoxicated)... ahahhaha... get fired... get back home & rot there, no income, not like anybody wans me anymore... hahahha... will jz rot at home hah....

sun.sky.seA.sAnd.

and BOOZE...

today was a great day! went to surfside beach to chill out. was awesome!
luckily i was thick skinned enough to ask whether they have room to fit me in! ahhaah...

sky was clear... waves were not too big, not too small, perfecto!
the sea wasnt so clear, but thn the weather was nice...

on the way there, we passed by a few oil refineries, some farms wif cows around... so texas...

its the first time i see that people can drive their cars right to the beach! it never happens in malaysia...
u can practically hv ur car beside u, that's so convenient!

the only down part is, there r no proper restrooms around. all they hv there are those portable unit toilets & believe me, it really really really sucks... u hv all sorts of rubbish inside there, including businesses that comes out of ur system, ladies business, etc... u DO NOT WANT TO GO THERE. but i had no choice, i had to change into my swim suit, so i had to force myself to go in there.
other than that, the place was nice... just a relaxing day at the beach... u can see owners bringing their dogs for a weekend relaxation... families bbq-ing... & u can see a jackup rig out far in the ocean & a jackup on land... so cool...

was tiring day but it was great!!! wish the waves were bigger, thn i could hv seen my frens go surfing...

|Ofty |Ofts

on the way to downtown today, i saw some loft for rents... the first image that came to my mind was Brian's (from Queer As Folk) loft... oooo... sexy... ahah... big space, modern living, can hv sex anywhere from the bar to the kitchen to the bathroom to the bed... oOoOooOOoOo.... wow wow, my fantasy! *piaks* wish i could stop by one apartment to take a peep.... hahaha too bad... dont tink the driver wanted to stop & i didnt ask anyway... ahahha...
wonder whether malaysia has this kinda loft lifestyle... hmmm....

|et's gO dOwntOwn!!!

I went downtown today, in the evening! the place is cool! finally i get to see the sky scrappers... the big modern business centres, high class hotels, expensive dining & guess what? we got to see a newly wed couple + bride's maid taking pics all along the downtown's road! ahahhaha... but the whole place was FULL wif traffic lights, every few hundred feet, u'll get to a junction wif multiple traffic lights... ahahha... i would very much prefer to take a look at the place at night & on a weekday! thn i can really see the hustle bustle of the CITY instead of being in boring houston southwest all the time... ahhaha... here's a professional "summary" of downtown:

Downtown Houston is home to dramatic 20th Century skyscrapers housing the offices where many of downtown’s Downtown Houston is home to dramatic 20th Century skyscrapers housing the offices where many of downtown’s 140,000 workers are employed, a world-class Theater District, a growing residential population, a popular nightlife scene centered in the Historic District, new light rail, an enhanced convention center and numerous new hotels. It also boasts two state-of-the-art sports facilities that attract millions throughout the year.

cOffee breAk

im not a coffee person... well, usually wen i hv coffee continuously for a few days, u can see the effect in my face... ahahha... pimples all popping out... so, its not good... must stay good loooking *piaks* (im so thick skinned) damn...

im more of tea person... well, besides hvg pimple outbreaks from coffee, i still prefer the taste of tea... lighter but works as good as coffee... usually i drink them to keep me awake & not fall asleep in class. if not, i wont drink them, well, as u know, caffeine is not good... i cant take much of nescafe either, my heart races after drinkin it, so i better not risk it...

but as of the past week, i was at another learning centre & they only serve coffee... well, they hv tea bags there, but not hot water, only hot coffee... so, its basically redudant to hv the tea bags there, they r pure brainless... y put tea bags when there's no hot water? its like giving u a fork & spoon but not giving u anything to eat... pointless rite? ahahha...

anyway, wif no tea to drink... i had no choice... coz i needed to stay awake for classes... so i had to drink coffee... its not that i dislike it, the coffee was nice... it's my body which doesnt take it quite well... but all in all, the coffee there had quite a nice aroma... & u hv it there for u the whole day, free... we even had free lunch, so it was a very good week...

b|Ack & white

found this really nice picture of a dalmation... ehhehe...