ur nOt wOrth it

it stil hurts but come to think of it... ur not worth it...
for someone who can jz leave like tat, jz leave everythin like tat & act as if nothing has happened & act as if we r strangers just because u cant face it, ur not worth my time & love...
to think that i hv put all i can in our rship which u dont appreciate & ur jz playing around, after ur done & thru wif me, u jz abandon me like tat... ur not worth me still loving u...
i have my pride & dignity, u just treat me like a stupid fool...
someone who can just utter "im like that wan la, u knew me from the very beginning, u should already know who i am, i cant do anything about it, u cant do anything about it, so jz forget it"
someone who can tell me face to face & tell like it's my fault to choose u even though i know ur like that & to give u my all even though i knew ur like this, makes it look as if im digging my own grave. u make me look like a fool, feel like a fool & u treat me like a fool...
to tink of it, there r so many other pple who certainly deserves more from me compared to u...
u jz wasted my time & what could have been when i made a wrong choice to choose u even though i supposedly knew u were like THIS.

願我可以學會放低你

it still hurts... no matter how hard i try, i stil cant get u off my mind...
ur the 1st one i am proud of... coz...
ur good at what u do...
ur caring n sweet when u want to be...
ur matured enough...
ur funny, u make me laugh...
u gave me strength when im all alone in a foreign land...
i admire ur capability in ur language...
u look good...
the list goes on...
there are so many things that i love about u...
i miss u so much...

now it's all over...

when i start to love u more & more each day, u gave me a big blow & suddenly, u dont feel for me anymore...
it's like i climb up the cliff, i climb higher n higher but u climb down from the top & now that im high above, u hv reached the ground & cut away my safety harness, u cut away my safety rope, u leave me falling from the cliff... if it was in the beginning, i would only hv cuts n bruises. now it's a stab thru my heart, i fall from that altitude, it will pretty much break my bones, paralysed... now i know how it feels being dumped... it hurts. it hurts so much, i cant slep.

to those i hv hurt before, im sorry... now i hv a taste of my own medicine & i know how bad it is...
i know sorry is just a word, it doesnt mean anything...

listening to ah c's songs used to b really cool... now it hurts... coz it brings back memories...
ah c is too good to give up on listening, so i choose to listen & feel the pain... more pain to top up wif, from the pain i am originally feeling...